I hit a boy yesterday
I smacked his face with my open palm
Hard.
it felt good
it felt wrong
I was scared.
Have I come to resent men so much that I think it’s okay to put my hands on them?
am I that angry?
I keep telling myself
he deserved it
he taunted me
he pushed my buttons
but what if he hit me
and had the same excuses?
I am proud of myself
for not taking anybody’s bullshit
I am ashamed of myself
for not being able to control my emotions
for holding a double standard
for being so fucking angry
all of the
fucking
time
